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Today is the 1st time I re-write my blog in year 2010. I hope I can continue my promise which to use my story to share or help with others. Why suddenly I will come back ??? This is because 火云邪神, he spread my blog address. But think again what to shame ??? I write this blog also prepare for others to read. The problem is........ my bad grammar, so shame to let others who know me to see. But now okay already.

090909

很久没有在这写Blog了, 为什么? 没时间, 不得空.....统统都是借口. 其实是没有灵感写啦......... 我并没有放弃写, 因为没有灵感怕写不够投入. 但是今天无论如何我一定要写一些因为今天很特别, 今天是不是090909 一个非常特别的日子. 其实我自己满幸福的, 因为我已经见证了2000年的度过, 见证了12点34份56秒7号8月09年, 还有见证了今天. 所以我真的没有什么大的要求了. 昨天我梦见自己中了一百万, 非常的开心. 但是醒过来之后才发现是做梦. 再想一想, 其实现在我也不错因为起码我还有本事每个月供屋, 还有本事不让自己的肚子饥饿, 有车驱, 那........ 还要要求什么呢? 虽然是辛苦但是跟别的比较我算是很幸运了.

有时, 用别的方式去想也可以让自己更开心的!

生命的终点

刚刚从一个葬礼回来, 心情有点酸因为死者是从小看我看到大的姑婆. 虽然我叫她姑婆但是我们并没有亲戚关系. 我妈妈和她同姓的, 所以从小我就叫她姑婆. 可是以后我也没有机会再叫她一声姑婆了.......... 但是我相信她在天国会找到她的快乐的. 现在的我对生命的看法已经看的很开了...... 人本来就会离开, 这个是改变不了的事实. 所以..... 我的性情很快的就收回来了. 我觉得人在离开之前可以做一件有意义的事, 走都走的快乐......... 所以我每天都会把握机会去做一些有意义的事, 例如我每天都会照顾我的健康, 因为懂得照顾健康的人就是对父母亲最大的回报. 如果有一天我真的到了生命的终点, 我也不会带着遗憾而走.....................

故婆你安心的去天国吧.



懂得珍惜自己的健康就是对父母最大的孝顺

生活的改变

当我知道考试的结果后，我非常的不开心. 幸好妈妈一直鼓励我, 所以我就很快的打算重考. 我一直告诉自己不要放弃, 下一次一定考的到, 我的病很快就好起来, 我很快就可以到英国继续我的学业. 就是这一些梦想让我可以继续的撑下去.

这些日子我只吃很清淡的食物, 每天早上吃面包, 有时吃米粉煮水或干捞米粉(只放一点点酱油, 下午就吃蒸鱼或蔬菜(也是只有一点点酱油吧了)晚上跟下午的差不多. 我喜欢吃的加哩鸡, 油炸的食物, 薯片, 汽水, 所有都不可以吃了. 每天还有甜品, 甜品就是黑浓浓的中药. 那些味道真的很难,很难喝. 有时看到镜子里面的自己非常的伤心害怕, 一个没有头发, 脸色苍白还有骨艘如材的身体. 但是我还需要撑下去因为有家人和朋友的自持, 又其时,妈妈. 我知道每个晚上都站在我的床边痛苦, 看见自己的孩子变成这个样子.

朋友, 有时候我们觉得自己非常的痛苦, 但是最童心的是一直看着你辛苦的人.

人生的十年

之前我讲过, 做了肾移植之后的生活. 但系我都知道还有好多我身边的人, 还是不会珍惜他们所拥有的健康. 他们都亲眼见证过, 我患病的其间, 他们都看过我最辛苦的情况, 他们都看过我在医院满身都是管, 但系我真的不明白为什么他们到了现在对他们的健康没有醒觉? 或者我现在健康了, 所以把我之前所经历过的望得一干二净? 如果真有此事, 我想...... 如果可以嚷他们对健康有了醒觉.....的话, 我领域我从来没有康复

喝少一点酒会死吗? 抽少一点烟会吃亏吗? 少吃一点煎炸的食物会很辛苦吗? 当我回来之后我看到这一群曾经为我而感到伤心的人, 为我祈祷的人, 为我担心的人, 望了对他们的健康. 我以我的经历可以唤醒他们对健康的重要! 什么出来应酬一定要烟酒不可少的, 男人出来参朋友烟酒不可避免的, 抽了这么多年戒不到的, 有事就死啦, 我做到这样辛苦吃一些都不可以吗? 我习惯到了凌晨才睡, 这些又不可以那些又不可以那.. 做人有什么意思呢? 我听到这些非常伤心, 他们真的不孝子女, 因为一个对父母孝顺的儿女就事会照顾身体的儿女. 人生有多少个十年可以嚷我们从新开始? 不是每个人的生命都有Take Two!. 现在我最大的心愿就是希望有一天我可以用我的口才来唤醒我身边的人对健康的醒觉.

朋友人生真的没有多少个十年, 珍惜你的每个十年吧.

240509

Lately really damn busy and the pc got bit problem and thats why I leave the blog for such a long period. Until today, hm......... ok la still have time to drop some words. 230509 means 23May 2009 and today was the 3rd yrs and 5days I done my kidney transplant. Actualy, frankly speaking after 3years plus, I do not feel any different, I am just like a normal people.

我现在可以做回以前做不 到的事. 现在我的生活非常的充实.一, 三, 五 打太级,别二,四,六打羽毛球, 还有,还有, 星期天去上口才训练班. 去年我从训练班得到了最佳学员和最佳演义将. 我还去了智障儿童中心去做探访, 也去了国家洗肾中心做义买筹款. 真的非常的开心, 我也打算继续我的学业, 如果金钱上容许, 我想考回一个Degree当作实现我的心愿. 现在我每逢星期天都陪妈妈去market买菜, 还有一起研究做蛋糕. 这些是我十多年前想做的,确但是由于我的病情我做不到. 幸好我当初选对了去做肾移植.

朋友,有些决定要敢敢去做, 可能它的回报比你想象中更多!

没有头发的日子

在没办法之下, 妈妈到处去寻找有效ger药来医我ger病. 有一日,有个人介绍我妈妈用小臭豆水来医我的病. 小臭豆水非常的难喝, 但系都要照喝因为我怕死lor........... Almost 2 weeks I drank the soup and I din't see any improvement, the worst was my hair started to fall. Earlier I am not that worry because it doesn't drop much until one day I tried to pull a pinch of hair out from my head, I easily pull out the hair . Then only I realize that my hair start to fall seriously and it just like having cancer at the critical stage. My weight fall from 65kg to 45++kg in just one month time. As times goes by, I become so skinny and my hair almost bald.

每天我都需要戴帽去街, 甚至要戴帽去番学. 个个同学见到我的状况都很惊讶, 但系拒地个个都好关心我的健康. My body was too week for me to continue my study, so I have been force to stop attending class. What I can do is........ doing home study and went for exam. During that time my college's exam was held in primary school, when I step in the examination hall everybody was so excited because I was wearing cap and I looked so pale. I still remembered mum packed me a lunch box with ABC soup for my exam break. The result for the exam ? Hm....... I can't made it to pass.................

失去的梦想

At last I told mum the bad news, as I predicted she was so down and fainted. So what can I do ? Take it or leave it ! The next step was....... I have to stop my studies in college and my uncle immediatedly fetch me out from my rented room. The environment of my room was so bad full of dust and shared with 4 persons. My dream to further my study in UK was over everything gone ! 我去英国读Degree的梦玩完lor.............. 我的生活从此完完全全的改变, 系依个时候我可以点阿? 接受啦!

Start from that day my diet was fully controlled, I no more taking outside food. My daily meal only served with steam fish (without oil, soy sauce) and vegetable (without salt and soy sauce). Gosh............ how to eat ? 点样吃阿? 无盐, 无油联酱油都唔多一滴, 真系好难吃. 但系可以点? 唔吃就吃远宝蜡烛ger啦................... Doctor recommended me admit to hospital for fully check up. I remember the 1st day I was admited, there was no bed for me, I just slept on a moveable bed which usually the bed use to carry emergency patient. I only get my bed on the second day, and the environment was bad. The toilet was dirty, the food was bad. I still remember the meal were bread and tea for breakfast, fry fish/curry chicken for lunch and hard boil egg/a little curry for dinner. I don't understand how can they serve patient with this kind of food, CRAZY!!!!! I felt so deseprate, so stress and think to ran away from the hospital. Luckily my uncle told me " We have to change for the environment and not the environment change for us. "

人系要为环境而改变而唔系环境为人而改变.

雪上加霜

Doctor recommended me to have a second test for my renal function. For the whole waiting period it just the most suffering period I have ever felt. 虽然短短四五天, 但依几天的折磨真系唔系讲笑, 真系很难过. This few days I started to control my food, sleep early and do a lots of praying, other than that I don't know what else to do. In the mean time I keep on telling my mum not to worry and everything will be fine. Although her emotions seems better than before but I know she was still so sad and worrying.

要来临个一天终于到了, 我真的唔想去检查, 真的不想! 但....在某些情形下系唔可以逃避, 无论点都系要面对. 1st doctor ask me to take blood test for my renal function, then go for ultra sound lastly I need to collect 24hours urine. Doctor ask me to return in 3days time to collect my report. Gosh............... another 3 days! I need suffer 3 more days, it's really crazy! On the 3rd day doctor told me that my report doesn't bring a smile, my condition get worse and the most unacceptable news was....................... I also being diagnose that I was a Hepatitis B carrier and my liver not seems to be healthy. I need to go dialysis immediately and the worse was there is no cure for me ! 点解一日里面有感多坏消息冲着我而来, I really out of my mine ! 依D唔系叫做雪上加霜lor..........There was another challenge waiting for me, how am I going to tell mum all these ?

无论事情有多坏都好, 一定要勇敢面对, 面对至少有个机会, 逃避一定无希望!

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